I know it’s crazy, and some of you think, how can a person that just came back from an awesome trip to Hollywood be depressed? But it’s true. I’m depressed again. Last week was worse than this week, I was barely able to function and most everyone that knows me noticed something was wrong and all I could respond with was that I was tired. I actually thought I was just tired, but how much time in bed does it take for someone to no longer feel tired?
A LOT when you’re depressed.
I wanted to try and write about it last week, but I knew that if there were any adverse comments that I would just start crying, throw my computer across the room and hide under the blankets. So, I just really pulled in and didn’t do much of anything. If it wasn’t for my husband that understands what it’s like to go through ups and downs, I think I would have slid even further than I did.
Seasonal Affective Disorder affects me the most when it’s days of raining, but I really do think I was tired and the combination of being tired, the overcast for a few days, and my kids telling me to go back to work (they love when I go on blogging trips) my brain just took it all and shut down the happiness. Just in case you have no idea what Seasonal Affective Disorder is:
Fall and winter seasonal affective disorder (winter depression)
Winter-onset seasonal affective disorder symptoms include:
- Loss of energy
- Social withdrawal
- Loss of interest in activities you once enjoyed
- Appetite changes, especially a craving for foods high in carbohydrates
- Weight gain
- Difficulty concentrating and processing information
From the Mayo Clinic
I was tired, depressed, and couldn’t concentrate on anything. All I still want to do is sleep, and even now with the sun out, and a little positive energy is in me, I find it quite difficult to write at all. And the more I put off the writing the more behind I get and it’s an endless downward spiral sometimes, but I’m working on finding my way out. So as you see fewer posts this week, next week I’ll try to be on top of it all. This weekend, I would expect an onslaught of posting as I’m way behind. (still catching up from Christmas AHHHHH).