I was on some blogging trips and I was terrified that I was pregnant. I kept it to myself for a while and didn’t take any tests, I just figured my body was acting funny because of the IUD and stress of the uncertainty of our house selling. I honestly did not believe that my house was going to sell. Stress does crazy crazy things to your body. I know that.
Finally, while I was on the trip with TJX I was talking with Tanya, Mommy Goggles and Alyson , 3 Ps in a Pod. I was telling them about my fear of being pregnant and the fact that my insides were moving. Yes, it was a possibility that I was pregnant. They both told me to take a pregnancy test. Cat even offered to drive me home from the airport and stop at a convince store so I could pick up a test and take it without my father knowing what I was doing.
I didn’t want anyone to know.
Finally I got over my fear and bought a test. It was….
I got back into my normal routine, and didn’t think about it again until one day I was feeling like a tampon was stuck in-between my legs. Yes, I’m sorry if you are a man, I just said tampon. Grow up or leave because it gets worse. I looked down and could see something fleshy. I wanted to just pull it out, but at the same time I was terrified. What is going on with my body. Why does my back hurt like crazy.
So, while my kids were running circles around me and under my legs, I tried to call the doctor to tell them something was falling out of me. They asked me a few questions and said that my doctor was all booked up. I was asking them what they thought I should do because this is serious. I’m falling apart and I want some help.
Three days later they were able to get me in and they said I have a cervical prolapse. So I didn’t find out what exactly that meant until I saw my doctor. She said that my insides are falling in on themselves and that it is common after pregnancy. Well, why don’t I know anyone that has this problem. I mean basically my cervix is falling out, my bladder is moving down and my rectum is moving up. It’s only a problem she said if I start having trouble going to the bathroom, but she was too busy and overbooked to answer any of my questions. All she told me was that I need to see a specialist and do physical therapy or have surgery. But if I have surgery I shouldn’t have any more children. This is the same doctor I begged and pleaded with to give me a hysterectomy. I wanted that so bad but she said I was too young and might want more children. I DON”T.
I have endometriosis, I have pain, I have two beautiful children and if something ever happened to them I could not replace them with another child. I’m done. I want a hysterectomy, I want my cervix to stop falling out and I want the back pain to go away. I can’t sleep at night because I’m in so much pain. Please!! make the pain go away.
Mostly, I wanted to write this post to.
1) Thank my new blogging friends for all of the love and support.
2) Write about my health issues because and share it with the world. I tried to read about it on-line and found that “only old people” have that problem. I’ll let you know that I am only 29 years old and have these health problems.
3) To vent, my doctor was not sympathetic at all. All she did the whole appointment was complain that they should not have squeezed me in because it was not serious and she didn’t have time to see me. I’m sorry, but if a woman thinks her insides are falling out, she’s going to think it’s an emergency. I could see my body parts hanging out. To me it was serious and I needed someone to help me calm down. I’m not a medical professional I do not know what is ok and what is not. Next time I’m just going to the emergency room.